So the first night of T25 Beta was … traumatic.
We went to the pool. I started with the Alpha “Lower Focus,” which I find is a good warmup. Then I looked at my options, and launched Beta Cardio.
There are different moves, and so I’ve no doubt I was hitting different muscles and muscle groups. But by the end I was shaking, dizzy, and holding the lane divider for dear life, and weeping.
It’s strange. When we were at the Clinic, I cried several times. Sometimes because the workouts hurt. Sometimes from fear (mostly of falling down – it was hard to get up at 500lbs). Sometimes, a cathartic cry of accomplishing something.
That first Beta workout? Probably like the first Alpha workout: this crap is hard, and it hurts, and it’s a bit overwhelming.
Last night I did my second Beta workout. This time at home. I picked the Upper Focus, and I selected the lightest weights we have – three pounders, if that. Less than halfway in I was on the couch gasping and sweating. I did many of the lifts while seated, because I couldn’t stay standing, but I kept going. It was bloody hard.
By the fifth week of Alpha, at least in the pool, I had begun to adapt. Some of the workouts – chiefly Cardio and Speed 1.0 – still wipe me out, but not to the point of tears. This new round is faster, and with some new moves. it starts you off quicker, and doesn’t let up.
It’s a complaint, yes. But…challenge accepted.
Why subject myself? Well, this morning I weighed 424.0, a new low in the challenge. Fat is crying this week, and that daunting 420 number is starting to sweat. I’m closing in, and I’ve got momentum.
I suspect I’ll cry the first time I see “41x.x”. A happy, cathartic, long-sought cry.